Ok so that was a lie....

things have changed so much in beccajotown, that it's not even funny. well, perhaps it's mildly amusing.

i have taught myself many interesting things, how to solder being one of them.
see?

but it hasn't freed up ANY more time.

i'm working at a college now, doing costume design for their theater department, and it's super exciting. and now i'm trying to decide if i want to a. open a store, or b. go to grad school and become a prof. ARGH CHOICES!!!!!

watch out internets, i'm back baby!

Well, it's been a whirlwind month. My show, Wonderland at the MN fringe fest was the #1 selling show. There's too many stories to go into at this point, but let me just say it was a wild and exciting ride, one which I hope we get to repeat very soon.

I have been neglecting my body, my room, and my art for so long though, that to do any maintenance on any one of them depresses the hell out of me. I've stopped walking every AM, and am starting to gain back the weight I'd lost. Deeeeepressing.

It's not *so* blasted hot any more, which is good, so I think this afternoon and evening I'm going to do some serious cleaning and organizing in my studio, and go through my closet again. Generous co-workers have been giving me clothes, but they're not always my style and yet I have a hard time saying 'no thanks.'

I'm looking forward to a nice, relaxing fall. Which means of course that it's going to be insanely hectic. And I wouldn't want it any other way.......

ten mile stretch on a nine mile line...

well the new necklaces i posted on etsy have disappeared. i suspect they were stolen. but i'm not sure. i'm going to wait 2 more days, and then de-list them and make all new ones. but not with new material. still trying to use up what i have.

i ran into an old babysitter @ the mall today, when i went to get a cookie at mrs. fields. yeah, i know i shouldn't be eating cookies. eff that. those cookies are worth being fat. yum! anyway. her grandparents built the house i grew up in, and she was in my older sister's grade in school. she checked my ID against my check card, recognized my last name, and we started to chat.

funny how the random fact that i used a card instead of cash meant i talked to her, instead of not.

we held a going-away party for my bro, SIL, and wee nephew matthew. i cried when i left. and a couple of more times on the way home. i'm going to miss so much of matthew's life. missouri is not that far away, but, it is.

it got me thinking on the things that i've passed up in my 30 years. and how fast life really does go.

then i went to the book store, and then to mission improbable 3. tom cruise has only 3 front teeth on the top. i'm glad i'm not the only one with a screwed-up grill.

good intentions.....cause injuries

So remember my traffic accident from a few weeks back? I had stopped for a pedestrian in a crosswalk, which is a state law. The dude behind me did not.
He smashed his truck into my wee car, totaling it. I got a new car, which I like very much (although I REALLY want to paint some flames on it) but now I'm leery of stopping for people at crosswalks. "Sorry!" I shout, as I buzz by.
I went to go get a salad at the local grocery store today, and for unknown reasons they switched the dressing from ladle-your-own, to carafes. Like someone would put on your table, so they didn't have to keep refilling your water glass every 3 minutes. I get a nice healthy salad, all sorts of good veggies and what have you, and go to put a SMIDGEN of bleu cheese dressing on. It comes out in one big glop so I had to go back and add more lettuce and other veggies to it.
I get back to work, start eating it, and INHALED some broccoli florets into my lungs. I started coughing. Then I started gagging. Went to the bathroom, threw up my 4 bites of broccoli. Sweet.

Had the little silver comets in my eyes from coughing and throwing up at the same time. Turns out one of them was actually one of the nasty little millipedes that lives in the bathroom. Ugh. He didn't try to crawl up my leg this time, perhaps he doesn't care for bleu cheese.

Finally! Something New!

I got inspired last night, and instead of cleaning like I should have been doing, I was creating. I stayed up WAY past my bedtime, but I made 6 gorgeous necklaces. One is promised to a charity auction, one is currently on my neck and probably won't be available for sale, but the other four are read-2-goh.

Check them out!

gettin' artsy with the digicam

Unbusy at work and waiting for traffic to pass so I can meet the 'rents at Big Bowl. Yum! Nothin' tastes better than free dinner.


Jeeze I need a brow waxing.

If I was a character in 'A Scanner Darkly', which, I'm not.


New jewelry coming to my etsy shop later this week. I promise!

neglected corners of my brain

well it's been a busy-ass month. highlights and lowlights:

*landlord in hospital for severe pneumonia

*room and studio absolute mess due to low energy/no time

*rehearsals for fringe show have started, only able to attend 1 so far
because....
*got rear-ended by license suspended, apparently uninsured driver. SWEET.

*car totalled

*had a super visit to chicago to see my sister

*decided to go to graduate school

haven't been able to do my creating every day thing, i gott get better at making time for myself. uuuuugh.

creative time vampire

so i'm on a drug for the depression. and it seems to have also conquered what i used to call simultaneous multitasking, but in reality, ADD is prolly what it is.
this is good. it allows me to focus long enough to clean. but it's also bad, because doing one thing for so long wears me out. and organizing is tiring.

also, i'm not remembering my dreams anymore. which is fantastic because my whole life i've had extremely vivid nightmares and unpleasant dreams. i was waking up anyhwere from 6-10 times a night, usually frightened of the demon i was just hangin' out with in the bar, or the dead body i'd discovered under my car which was only the head of a baby and a body of a snail. stuff like that. it'd take me hours to fall asleep at night, and once i woke up, more time to fall back asleep.

so that alone is great. but i haven't had the desire, or the time it seems, to sit down and MAKE. and the days when i don't make anything, i feel a little funny.

i've been seeing some really amazing things out there on the internet that make me feel like a suck for not keeping up with my jewelry and yarn spinning and collage and what have you. so i'm going to try to set aside creative time once again. an hour a day that cannot be spent cleaning, rehearsing, working, eating, walking etc. can only be spent MAKING.

contest! whoopee!

The super cool glampyre is having a design contest. Here's my entry-a kimono style sweater made of lace. I think it'd be gorgeous. I dig the deep colors, and it's unusual to go from light to dark on top. As the pic says, it's inspired by two things I found on Knitty-the Kyoto Sweater, and the Branching Out scarf. Could I knit this thing? Hope so.

rainy days and mondays always get me down

it's monday. it was rainy today. bummer.

we cast our fringe show over the weekend, but then some peeps dropped out.
that's not as bad as the other show i'm werkin' on, where the stage manager, assistant director, and 4 actors have dropped. oh, and it opens in less than a month. whoopee!

the rain seems to have stopped. i'm going on a walk.

oh. but this is the funniest thing I've seen in months.

Too good to be true

Yeah, so I thought I was getting boucoup bux back from Uncle Sam and Cousin Tim Pawlenty, but it turns out I put one less '5' in my income box than I should have. So, WHOOPS!

I anticipate an audit in my near future. But after having a colonoscopy, how bad can it be?

Anyway, I expect to spend a few hours on the phone with the IRS over the next couple of days, wish me luck.

In other news, I left all my beading supplies at my parents' house, and gas being so freakin' expensive, I've decided to wait to pick them up until I've amassed a bunch of mail up there, as well.

This weekend was gorgeous. I feel like spring has sprung.